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I’m Turning 2

I died two years ago today.  Yup.  Really.  My body didn’t die, but my life as I knew it, my personality, my goals and dreams, my daily ability to function and work all ended on January 25, 2014.  It just … Continue reading

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My Ex

I woke thinking of roller derby this morning. Not in an in-love heart heart heart way, but rather like that ex lover with lots of history, with plenty of ups and downs in a relationship that ended in a way … Continue reading

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Sloughing off Skin

I have cut away what no longer fits. Not always consensually, and certainly not always gracefully, but there it is. Roller derby is gone. I love it, would love to be skating and hitting people, and that is not who I am … Continue reading

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Pleasing Tasks

Human beings seek pleasure and avoid pain.  Most of my last year has been about avoiding pain.  Wear a wide-brimmed hat to tolerate overhead fluorescent lights.  Stop an activity once a headache starts so my head won’t pound for the rest of the … Continue reading

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A Year Later

I remember the morning well.  I was exhausted from an impromptu trip to Connecticut for a funeral, but made myself get out of bed anyway.  Our league was trying out Saturday morning practice.  I was one of the people who said it was … Continue reading

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I Dreamed

I dreamed of roller derby last night.  When I woke up, I remembered that that is not my life, and I cried and sobbed and howled on Mary’s chest. I did not even dream of skating.  My mind somehow remembers … Continue reading

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Where is the Cat?

“Where is the cat?  Did you let him out?  You know I don’t like him going outside when it’s dark out.”  That is me, one evening this summer.  Night had fallen, I was doing dishes and Mary and I were … Continue reading

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