It’s not you, it’s me.
No, we’re not breaking up. But I do need space to explore new goals. I’m taking a six month hiatus from The Foggy Shore blog.
Not to say that I won’t post at all. It’s simply that my focus is going to shift, so I’ll post as time and inclination allows. I do have several comics in the works – they’re damn funny, and you won’t want to miss them. I’ll share those as I finish them.
But now, and for the next six months, my focus is going to be on my writing… I mean my other writing. Writing my book, the book I’ve wanted to write for years. The one about living and recovering from post concussion syndrome. It’s time to slog through my past, try to give it shape, and put it on the page for others to read and understand.
I realized last week that I wasn’t going to finish my book if I don’t give it my sole attention. I was sitting at this same computer, writing about one of the several times I felt suicidal the first year or so after my injury. Tears running down my face, sobbing, full of sorrow, but really wanting to get it out there. Writing like that isn’t fun, but it is necessary for my purposes.
I am human, so I tend to avoid pain and pursue pleasure. Writing for my blog, which are snippets of specific recent incidents and my experience in those moments, feels much more pleasurable than getting into the trenches of my past. So. If I keep having blog posting on my to-do list, I’m going to keep struggling to “find the time” to make the other, more difficult stuff, happen.
That’s the number one reason. The number two reason is this. Any person who deals with mental fatigue issues knows multitasking is difficult. Or, rather, simply impossible. I’ve been trying to switch my attention between my book for a week, then to my blog for a week, and then back to my book again. Each time, it takes a day or two for me to mentally transition my brain and thinking patterns. The result is I’m not gaining momentum for either of these activities, making it harder to accomplish what I want.
So. Here we are.
You are welcome to email or message me. I still want to connect. If we know each other outside of the electronic jungle, please feel free to call or email or text or video chat or meet me in person to catch up. I’d love to.
It’s hard to believe something I set in stone 18 months ago – putting up blog posts on a schedule – is changing. And harder still to believe I’m taking a break after 4 years and 8 months of this being my lifeline to the world. I’ll probably freak out a little later on about it, and I’ll probably have a bit of a rough time adjusting, but I will.
Thank you, all of you, who have read and commented and cared about my blog over the past 4+ years. You helped me to stay sane and feel like what I have to say is important. I would not have made it without your attention and support. I will always be thankful for that, this blog, and you. Blessed be.